So its Sunday and its day fifteen and I can safely say its been a great weekend without any booze apart from a couple of things. I attended a small party on Friday and stayed couple of hours. While I was there I was offered a kidney if I finished the 365 days and when i turned this down (the assumption being made that this was in fact just a joke offer) I was offered £50 to the charity of my choice, to which a comment was made ‘how do we even know she is actually not drinking’……so and I’m hoping I made it clear in my response to this, I am only doing this for myself, I am not wanting money towards charity or a a car with a bow on at the end of the year (or indeed anyone’s kidney)…If I drink in the time frame I have given myself to give it up, I am only letting myself down and I will be open and honest with everyone if that happens. After we had discussed this I was asked why I was even doing it, what was the point..I asked my other friend if she had even read my blog which explained it all and she said no….I was disappointed with that but I am really hoping that she is starting to read it now..and that it explains it better than I can when I try and sit down and talk about it.
The second thing was Saturday, by eight pm I was getting a little irritated, I had a very productive day and achieved more than I have done in forever ..so of course normally I would ‘reward’ myself with a bottle of wine (or more) and that of course was not happening. I instead ate a chocolate bar which raised my spirits a little and then after really thinking about it I realised I was just irritable and tired and that really instead of sitting there craving a glass of wine I should probably just go to bed…and I did just that..no problem.
The positive effects of not drinking have shone through this weekend, I have decluttered my whole house, room by room; while doing this I found out I owned 20 duvet covers (18 without matching pillow cases)…20!!! I do not even know how this happened…I must be on the hoarder scale somewhere! I also managed to at last throw away all the remaining baby clothes I have been clinging onto for dear life since lilbit was born..I have saved four items and the rest is gone..that was the hardest, I have kept them through six house moves and many family and friends having baby girls but now was the right time to let them go..shes five this year I need to get a grip!
My skin is clear and looks better than it has in years (no spots/outbreaks/redness), the mornings are fantastic because there is no heavy head and sick feeling and I feel like I am able to have better conversations with people (probably because of the clearer head). I have been contacted by people I have not spoke to in years which has been really lovely and I am organised and ready for the week ahead when normally I dread Monday’s! So all in all this giving up alcohol is not half bad!
Happy Sunday xxxx